So Life is playing a different tune for me nowadays. Again, changes. I believe I somewhere wrote about Changes and I continue to find my life in ever motion. My Mind is screaming because I am now FORCED to take a leap. I could have done it earlier and the change would be nothing, however obviously, I have to declare DEFEAT and then... wait.

Jump?

Somewhere you declare defeat and should JUMP to take a leap, but for me, I have created a solid ground for the future, somewhat consciously so the jump is nothing, but subconsciously I played a prank on myself. I can't see the road ahead so I have to wait.

And people who knows me understand my creeping-in-frustration Self when I have to wait. Impatient is an understatement. I want to go go go and get shit done. And my head says SURE! Let's DO it. And my body goes numb. "Forget it, I need to REST!"

My Soul says nothing but is humming to the music. It's giggling to my childish "throwing-a-fit" mode that I am in at the moment. I didn't change the tune, I didn't say it was time to dance. I am in no control and I don't like it.

But I  T R U S T  it.   

Love.

 

Atea

11 juni 2012 13:41

Så sant så vännen! Du är några kilometer före mig vad gäller framtiden, din grund har just brustit mesans min vacklar fortfarande! Jag gillar inte det heller för jag är som du" kontrollfreak"!! Men som vi brukara säga: vi ska ju ha feta smällar för att våga och hoppa! Men du....... Vi hoppar ju tillsammans! ;) Tyriea atea

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