So Life is playing a different tune for me nowadays. Again, changes. I believe I somewhere wrote about Changes and I continue to find my life in ever motion. My Mind is screaming because I am now FORCED to take a leap. I could have done it earlier and the change would be nothing, however obviously, I have to declare DEFEAT and then... wait.

Jump?

Somewhere you declare defeat and should JUMP to take a leap, but for me, I have created a solid ground for the future, somewhat consciously so the jump is nothing, but subconsciously I played a prank on myself. I can't see the road ahead so I have to wait.

And people who knows me understand my creeping-in-frustration Self when I have to wait. Impatient is an understatement. I want to go go go and get shit done. And my head says SURE! Let's DO it. And my body goes numb. "Forget it, I need to REST!"

My Soul says nothing but is humming to the music. It's giggling to my childish "throwing-a-fit" mode that I am in at the moment. I didn't change the tune, I didn't say it was time to dance. I am in no control and I don't like it.

But I  T R U S T  it.   

Love.